Life is weird. When you’ve wanted something for so long and when it’s finally happening, you freak out and question if you still want it.
I’ve started preparing for business school exactly four years ago, when I decided in my junior year of college that I needed more schooling (just couldn’t get enough apparently…). Now that I’m going to school in 3 months, I am absolutely mortified and spazzing out on an hourly basis.
But, like, aren’t you excited? I was, for the first few days after I got into a top MBA program. But, like, you’re gonna have so much fun. Yes, this is true. But once you get over the pretty statistics, you start realizing that everything you’ve ever known is about to be flipped upside down. Moving cross country and starting a new life for just two years is no joke. The logistics of this move and change in life is going to be a nightmare. I don’t understand how people can just get up and move to another city to work. I commend their efforts and I’m sure it takes a lot of courage, but I just don’t take it so lightly.
It all boils down to this: I’m not miserable enough here to move there, or anywhere for that matter. In fact, life is going pretty well for me right now. Everything is pretty god damn dandy. The more I calculate net present value and opportunity costs the more I don’t want to change anything at all.
I must be the .0001% of applicants that thinks that. Sorry for the thousands of waitlisted candidates who are waiting for people like me to drop their application.
And dear god, the costs! Not working for two years+tuition+paying rent+extra costs+moving+flights+trips+career treks. And here I was slowly just getting out of my broke college student mentality.
FUHHHHHHHHHHHHH ::continue freak out mode::